Entrust: To commit to another with confidence
Yes, I'm back to this. If you read my rambling post from a few weeks ago, I warned you that I was processing! Still am. Thinking and praying about what God has entrusted me with and what that really means. I mean look at that definition. Does it scare you a little bit like it does me to think that the creator of this universe has "committed (insert whatever thing here) to me with confidence"?!?! I mean does He KNOW me? (yes) Is He CRAZY?! (strangely no...)
Here's where I've been- the parable of the talents. The master returns to collect what he's entrusted from His servants.
"'Master', he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.' His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!"
As I've meditated on this passage over the past several weeks, God has brought other things along for me to consider. In my Experiencing God Day by Day devotional book, I read these words:
"Your ability to serve God is not based on your past, but on your faithfulness today. If you are faithful with the task God entrusts to you, God will enable you to accomplish it." (see, there's that "today" theme again!)
Let me just tell you that I have a very unique ability (that I've passed on to at least 2 of my 4 daughters) to worry like nobody's business. That in itself is a topic of another post, but take it from me, in the world of worry, I can beat you hands down. I promise. God knows this and He knows how quickly I can become overwhelmed as I consider the tasks of mothering, providing for our family, being the wife I desire to be. For all these reasons, I am so thankful for this theme He has me camping on in this season! Because, truly, life is simply overwhelming. The tasks at hand always seem to big. Raising 4 daughters to be women who fear the Lord and desire to serve Him- well that's just too much for me! Thankfully, not too much for God. He gives me bite-sized, today-sized pieces which is about all I can handle. He calls me to be faithful with today's task and today's task only- whatever that may be. Am I being faithful in prayer? in personal discipleship and discipleship of my kids? in preparation for whatever tomorrow holds as He directs?
See, as a world class worrier, even in my prayer time, I can quickly go from praising Him for His provisions for the daily task at hand to fretting over this or that and thinking "I JUST CAN'T DO IT!!!". And always, always, always, He is so faithful. Here's what He reminded me of on Thankgiving morning...
"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work."
2 Corinthians 9:8
HE is the one who gives me what I need for the task that He's given me. And not just sometimes for some of the tasks. No, IN all things AT all times, His grace will provide ALL I need.
I've also been reading Paul's letters. This jumped out at me...
"So then, men ought to regard us as servants of Christ and as those entrusted with the secret things of God. Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God."
Holy cow! It's overwhelming enough to think of my precious little ones that I've been entrusted with (that's mainly how I've felt led to apply the Matthew passage to my life at this point), but to move on from that and realize that as a believer, I am entrusted with the "secret things of God"! Good grief. How unworthy am I! Thankfully God does not expect my worthiness. No, He knows how ridiculously unworthy I am, yet by His amazing grace He chooses to entrust me anyway. He does, however, expect my faithfulness. And as the above passage says, my judgment ultimately comes from Him alone. He alone knows my heart and my true motives. When it's all said and done, from the daily mothering tasks and ins and outs of running a household to the challenges of learning and communicating in Arabic to being what Jason needs to support him in his work, may I prove faithful and seek the praise of Christ alone!